Empty

 A place for emotions to bleed out, so everythings to returns to zero.

I can move from zero. I don't need to be happy, or positive. Just zero is good enough.

From zero, you can choose, freely, what to do. You may not be excited about it, but you will have the ability to do.

Somewhere in that zero is the chance to be good, to feel a fleeting satisfaction.

What does motivation feel like? Real motivation. A conviction of something important that lasts.

How do you keep choosing to move?


It is now 3.30pm. In 30 mins, it will be time to leave. Can I make these 30 mins something useful to justify my day? I do not want to.

Yes, let's do something with this time. At least half an hour of work. Come, let us work.

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